Random question with random thought

My bro throw me a question, “what do you think about working life?why do you always seems energetic in your work?”

This got me into deep silent..*is a start of a Table Topic session again*

“I don’t think much about my work and I don’t seem to be that energetic either..I just pass a day and call it a day, if the work don’t kill you I guess everything will be fine…I’m just work to live and not live to work..If I’m the latter then only considered as enthusiastic about work..”

“an optimistic view” replied my sister..

come to think about it, yeah…there are not even a smooth sailing for a day at my work since I started but I do hang on..and to include my new role in Toast as a Area Governor(AG with 5 clubs under my care..I’m starting to feel tiredness..

but mental tiredness would not kill you unless you allow it to…I was quiet frustrated at the some level when I’m not supported or assisted by some club’s officer at 1st..He is mentally and spiritually unsatisfied of me being the new AG…WTF..

Life is full of “the others” so why would I care so much about them instead I should focus on what I’m doing, let alone he is preparing a showdown for me or preparing a speech for “8-10mins persuasion with power”…the objective is to make believe that I’m incapable and inexperience(Wtf..toastmasters is a org for the inexperience to become experience!)…Communication is never easy..sometimes silent is gold…

hehe..life still goes on..so if whoever is in my way..let it be..I only welcome those who wants to befriend..focus on good news..

for life..as long as I’m still alive..I won’t get too caught up with it(maybe just a few hours of imbalance emotions)..if I’m dying…what is there to worry..hehe..

Happy day ahead!

Ernest wong.

http://www.threeguy-onegirl.blogspot.com/

hahahaha….now…it is a start of a family blog…

Titles and status is really the devils of all egos.

Titles and status is really the devils of all egos.

I recently gotten my titles;CC(after completing 10 speeches) and CL(Competent Leadership). After I’ve gotten my titles, I’ve stop giving new speeches or even plan to write a new speech. I’m afraid to fail, fail at my speeches. (Egoism)

Today I was badly defeated by the talented and better speakers in my club in the humorous speech and evaluation contest.(Is hard to accept defeats, but I think this time I handle it quite well.)This is mainly due to my laziness and my egoism.

I used my old speech “Clubbing” with the hope of getting a placing, I gave that speech before as I have no intention to write any new humorous speech.  I’ve limited myself in believing that is(clubbing) the best humorous speech that I have(Actually that is the only humorous speech I’ve done). Egoism had me again, afraid of feedbacks like “I like your clubbing speech better”.

When I decided to join the contest, it was out of fun and experience(of course want to win 1st place lar) but this time I’m not so enthusiastic compare to when I competing in the International speech contest at February 2007. (excuses to comfort my failure)

                                  

I often have the kind of feelings that if I present the same speech again, the enthusiasm and the excitement(of the speech) will not be the same way as the 1st time I presented.

If my speech didn’t receive good response from the audiences(1st time), I will find ways to improve it but if it was the other way(received good feedbacks), I will hesitate to change the speech, I want to keep the gist of it. Unfortunately my “clubbing” speech belongs to the latter. I hesitated to change my approach towards the subject. I refused to make a new speech. I want to stay in my comfort zone, to play safe.

So as a result, my defeats is not a surprise. This defeats is good for me because I need to start on my speeches again. I’ve stopped giving speeches for 2 months plus. After completing the CC title. I don’t feel like doing anymore speeches as I feel like I’ve reached another level(Cheh).

Now is good, defeats can brings me back to the start. Where I need to relearn the techniques of giving speeches. It reminded me that I need to back to my drawing board.

If titles builds egoism then defeats builds humble-ism. I want to go back to the drawing boards and relearn the techniques and be humble again.

I’ve no talents in speaking but I am willing to learn and improve. I’ve few things which I really work my ass out if I really want to be respected in toastmastery.

1. I need to improve on my grammar and my prepositions.
2. speech organization.
   
3. Improve my diction.